Another Day

So another day in my life of Chronic pain.  Seems to have let up a bit today.  Have been using a cane since my fall Upstairs last week.... LOL!!  Stairs seem to trip me up instead of down, like normal people.
Anyway, going to see the nurse at Horizons today.  Hopefully no change in medication.  Taking trazadone so i can sleep nights.  It does work, but I am so groggy in the morning.  So I let up on taking them every night.  That seems to help a bit.  My fatigue is excruciatingly a continuous fight!!  I am sick of being tired every day.  My job was compromised due to lack of concentration and mistakes.  I couldn't grasp and hold all the new ways in which to do the job.  I was constant change.  I found myself frustrated and upset.  Also, very disappointed in myself.  Thinking I was just stupid.  But then how did i get this far I said to myself.  I knew something was wrong with me. But, as usual my primary doc knew nothing.  
My pain levels was starting to get really bad at this point.  The knuckles in my hands were starting to ache so bad.  My body hurt.. I thought I was dying!!!   Finally, my mother suggested I go see her Rheumitologist.  I made the appointment. Finally, were getting somewhere.  
Well, they knew I had Fibromyalgia, but they also thought I might have Lupus, Rheumitiod Arthritis, possible Alkylosing Spondylitis.  
Well, anyway.  After a few visits and a few PA's.  I finally had a new doctor, youngish and very interested in autoimmune disease.  His conclusion was, I had Fibromyalgia and RA.  Amen.
So now i deal with depression/anxiety that comes with having chronic pain and fatigue. 
I've been told now, my RA is not active right now.  My levels have gone to almost normal.  So i won't see my Rheumy until March. 2011.  So until then, I sit wait and hope.